Sophia

Your symphony has never left me, for in the passing time I yearn nothing but to become yours. In the horizon I see noting but your reflection; a reflection that would never fade and would control me completely. In can never end, this feeling, for every time I breathe, I inhale your hypnotizing story into me.

Will there be a moment for me to take you away? This feeling I have in me will never die now. And the mere thought of you is an ecstasy to my mind. Now, I find it hard to wake up, for it ends my dream of gazing upon you forever.

I will always pray that you’d hear me my song. A song which sings only of you and whose dances meant of whatever it means to love you.

Can you see it? Can you feel me? Open your eyes now and let’s run away together.

note : I don't know who Sophia is... :D

photo from : momoclax

once upon a time...

The first page! it's too small though! :D I scanned it!

I was cleaning my room when I found an old story that I wrote for my friend to celebrate her love life… (Go Tinkerbell!!!) I really miss writing, but it’s really unfortunate that I really can’t find anything to write about. I guess it’s because my mind has been fully taken over by my studies and it’s was just last Friday when I was able to completely clear up my mind from the worries of failing…and right now I am making up for lost time and by the time I’m starting to catch up, I’m already going to school again, worrying about passing again…whew…I never thought this vacation is too short for me…I need more time!!! SIGH!!!!

Between what is right and what you want… (again?)

Okay, seriously, I have contained myself for the longest time in my whole life. The last time I decided to let go of all the pressures in life without really caring about my surroundings was May 31, 2008, which was ages ago! So, it was when I was talking to my friend on the phone when I realized how much I am dying to have a night out with my old bar buddies (wewt!)! Waaah! I don’t know, I mean, I am DYING go out right now and just have some fun. I guess it’s kinda hard to ignore the party blood once it got injected into your system. I mean, the great music, the relentless dancing, and uhm..well, the occasional drinks put you in a state of trance that would simply be etched onto your brain making you crave for more. I promised myself that I won’t be doing this anymore since, I don’t know, it’s kinda getting old for me but I guess it just won’t go away! Drinks anyone? :D

I WANT ONE!!

It’s quite weird and useless to be talking about notebooks, but for those who don’t know, I love buying notebooks for no reason at all. Well, mostly for the sake of me having something to doodle or scribble on since most of the time, thoughts would seeps out of my effin’ brain. So here’s the thing: I found a very cool notebook that I really, really, REALLY want to buy!!! It’s kind of weird, but I would consider notebooks as one of my luxuries in life!!! :D but another thing is…it costs over a thousand pesos (a thousand pesos if you order it…)! Wuhuhuhu… so right now I am battling practicality over wants or wants over practicality or whatever! Another thing that made the decision making harder is I have a great reason to buy one! :D

untold chronicles of silence

.silence is bronze. by ~cisya on deviantART

I lie here in silence, for silence is all I have. My spirit has been stripped off its feeling, numbing me completely. Can anyone tell me of melancholy? For in melancholy I would sing.

I lie here in the darkness for I have turned myself blind. With the desires for the things I see, I turned my back from life. Now, every vein in my body seeps out of stories of wild ecstasy of relentless pains.

Can anyone tell me the tale of death? For though, in death I can find nothing, I have let my weakness find myself there.

I have nothing to carry, and in my emptiness I have found nothing of importance. I have chased winds and now I’m falling with it-not flying-falling.

note : mind clutters that ended up on a piece of paper that ended up here!! :D

Now that I have my life back..I don't know what I'm going to do with it...

At long last, my major exams are over and the only remaining exams are pretty easy compared to the excruciating test I have taken a few days back. And now, the only thing that I am worrying about is how to spend my sembreak without boring my guts out. I don’t know what to do! I mean I am the kind of person who, though likes being alone, can’t stay in one place for too long without doing anything. One week of break is too long for me. So what am I going to do? I don’t know so if any of you have any ideas, tell me, I am open to any suggestions.

So since I have no idea on what else is there to do, I am planning on locking myself away to our province for almost the whole break, but I don’t know if I am going to last long there. I mean, it’s so far away from civilization to the point that cellphone signals are so scarce that you have to be in the middle of the sea to get a bar, plus, there’s no studio 23 there so I’m not gonna be able to watch Grey’s anatomy making it hard for me to decided whether I am going to be doing this.

Our province!! waah I miss the beach!!!

Another plan of mine to read my heart out, since I have been literally hoarding on books this semester. On the contrary, I don’t know if the books that I bought will last for the whole sembreak, since, even though I try to slow down my reading, I still end up finishing books in one seating, I just can’t stop reading the moment I started.

Was in a book frenzy last month! can't stop buying!

So that is pretty much my plans for this sembreak, plus the occasional partying but I don’t know if I’m going to get something good from that now (I, so unless I concocted a new plan all these can be called “a complete system of lack of thoughts”. Sheesh..so again, suggest something please..ü

out of reason

Hmmm…it’s like sitting on a chair in front of your bloody study table for two hours and doing nothing but stare at your thick books without even understanding a word. That, for me, is called giving up.

Seriously, I am not stressed nor even on the verge of going gaga due to the freakishly hard finals. I am fed up. So fed up that I would just want to walk away without much effort to survive whatever is there for me now. I don’t know, it’s just that I am not a huge fan of frustrations. And right now, almost every single thing around me seems so frustrating (but surprisingly, my uncle, whom I work for, is not!!).

I don’t know, should I have a reason for doing this - for giving up or going on, I mean? Do I have to have one? Because if I do, I command it to appear now, at this very moment while I am typing these stupid thoughts! Well, unfortunately, it is not appearing now, ‘cause if it is I won’t be continuing this post. Okay I don’t know what to write anymore.. so I guess it ends here.. weird…